Sayes

sayesstrolledamongthecedarsasshewaitedforthediggingtotirecearley
ourdeadlanguagewascraftedthroughourvoicesandsoshehummedatortured
melodysureofitspotencytostultifyandcalmassheheardtaylorwhistling
inthedistanceofthecemeterysspanchunkwenttheshovelandcoowentadove
thegrassygroundwasdampandsquishybelowaskythatwasdankandimperious
sayesbreastsweresorefromlastnightsfrolicwithsataninafieryhayloft
hershoulderswerescratchedwhileherlungsstillachedfromburntfiction
shewaslessthanintriguedbyceremoniesofmemorialoccasionandwaseager
towriggleoutfromunderthisoppressivegraveyardinthisgrapevineplace
andgoforadrivethroughthebackroadsofthisripecountrysoforeigntoher
butasaquarterofourcollectiveshecouldntdoanythingverydrasticbyday
shedhavetowaitforsleepagaintodullcohesivenessanddistributeagency
shedhavetoabidebythesocialcontractandstandthegroupspeakbeforeshe
couldearnherfreedomandstealawayintothebalmofchoiceandrudeabandon
herbruisesfeltauthentictoherthoughsheknewthemtobeconjuredsheknew
shewasntindependentenoughtobaskinthegenuinehorrorofhumanselfhood
therearepeopleinthisworldyouknowwhotheyarewhodontsuccumbtonormal
whodontkowtowtosamewhodontbowdowntoaverageandsayesdesiredtobeone
ofthemandshewasbutalwayswhenitleastmatteredwhennothingwasatstake
shewassmetanasmoldaurunningthroughoneofhaydnssymphonieshercommon
uncommonnesscouldraisenobodyfromthedeadandhervltavadiedinhiselbe
shehadwantedtotasteherfathersandmothersashesbuttheywouldntlether
ifshecouldveeatentheirentireremainsshewouldhavebutthatisnttheway
ofourculturalnormnotnowandnotlatelyshedoftensleptwithhermaverick
ramickbutshedneversleptornightmaredorremoteviewedwithagoodtaylor

sayesdrovedownthelongdarkhighwaysearchingforanopenminimarttaylor
wasthirstyandnobodyhadenoughchangeforthemotelsdrinkmachineshewas
alreadysickofthecloseroomanywayandjumpedattheopportunitytoescape
intothenightairherturntobathewasalwayslastsinceshecouldntstandto
haveanyonewaitingonhertofinishanythingandshehadhersuretechniques
ofwakingramickifhedgoneaheadandfallenintoobliviousnesswithouther
shecouldbeartaylorwaitingonherforhisdrinkbecauseshewasdoingusall
afavorandwecouldwaittilltheLordgoodgoddesssentafloodofcarbonated
disasterifourimpatienceweretoreachouttobotherherorwecouldallwait
tillfriendsatanherselfsmotheredusinoursleepshedidntcarebutshedbe
herusualconscientiousselfandgetuswithoutfailjustwhatwedrequested
orsoshethoughtandasshedroveshealsothoughtwhatifshewerentevertogo
backwhatifshekeptdrivingallnightandthroughtomorrowforeverandever
asstraightasagoodgirlintothewestandonintotheseawhereshedsteerour
cartothegatesofposeidonswetkingdomtogiveherselftotiamatbutbefore
sheevengottothegasstationshesawtheredflashinglightsofthesheriffs
cruisersshepulledintotheparkinglottogointothestorebuttheclerkwas
standingoutsidethedoorsmokingandtoldsayestherehadbeenarobberyand
thestorewasclosedsayesaskedifshecouldgoinsideanywaysheonlywanted
tobuyafewdrinkstheclerksaidnothestorewasclosedtheydbeenrobbedand
shewasstillshakingsosayesaskediftherewasanotherstorenearbyandthe
clerktoldhertherewasoneinthenextcountybutitwouldlikelybeshutdown
tightbythetimeshegotthereitwasntanallnighterlikethisonethensayes
satinourcarandwatchedlightningflashalongthedistanthorizonmissing
ramickscharmshedhavegotintothegoddamnstoreifonlytoimpresscearley

sayestangledsheetsaroundherbodyasseaweedarounddriftwoodandramick
tangledbackinadualdreamofdesperateconnectiontheyfoughtintheirown
wisteriareefneitherknowinghowtotellthepartfromthewholethoughthey
cantreallybeblamedtheywereasleepanddreamingandalargestormwassoon
todescendupontheirsmallmotelastormofpsychologicalferocityinthese
daysofemotionalturmoilperhapswerenotcoyenoughtodissembleorclever
enoughtodisassembleouroldestconstructstheycouldnttellthefarthest
fromthenearestoursayesourramickonepersonswayofshowingcarefromthe
otherpersonswayofshowingcareliesofomissionversusseverepoliteness
whatevercolorknickersoreyesorskinwhateverstateofmindorloveordebt
oursubterraneanworldoutflanksoursurfaceworldonlyasaconceptandnot
asanempiricalforcesayeswasntasrealorasfalseasanymadonnashewasnta
proporatropeorapaperdollshewasnoiconorconjoborcondescendinglover
shewasavipersaltarofcontradictionsandramickwasourconfusingmentor
butwraptroundthemselvesinbedclothestheyconstitutedaconundrumthat
wasneitheralphanoromeganeithersensualnorsensicaltwoanglesfromour
ordinarysquaresqueezedtogetherancestrallybyourtriangleimperative
lightninglittheroomeventhroughthethickcurtainsandthunderfollowed
ramickwasasquidinsayesdreambuthisinkcouldntimpregnateherandsayes
wasanoysterinramicksdreamchokinghimwithacherrysourashardasapearl
sayeswokewiththeloudclapbutshewasstilldreamingtheresnoendtothese
layerssensationalorcomputationalhermouthwasdryhissnakewasstaffed
theirtimewasdonetheirheroesweredeadtheirmindwasmadetheirheartwas
twinedsayesdistrustedramicksambitiousthrustsitsnotasifshedesired
taylorbutshethoughtperhapsinatruerrealmshewouldveembracedcearley

wedontcarewhatssaidaboutusthatswhatwesayandthatsjustwhatwellkeep
onsayingnomatterwhatssaidaboutusbywhoeverdoesthesayinginwhatever
waytheydothesayingwedontcarewhosayswhataboutanythingwhetherabout
usorabouttheempiricalscienceoftheoriginsoflifeoraboutourvagaries
ofloveorabouttheLordgoodgoddessherselfwedontcareonejotaboutanyof
thatandweregoingtokeeprightonnotcaringwhetherornotthedogseverget
homeorthebaldmaneversingsorwhetheryoucanhitthebroadsideofanybarn
withyourtheorieswesimplydontgiveadamnourmindsaresetinthatfreedom
whatwedocareaboutisourinabilitytosaywhatneedstobesaidaboutyouand
yourexpectedabsenceyourroutinedisppearancewheneverwestooduptosay
whateverwasonourmindtosaytosayinallsincerityevenifeverybodyknows
wedontknowhowtosayitwemightknowwhatneedssayingbutwedontknowhowto
saywhatneedssayingorwedontknowwhatneedssayingbutifwedidwedsurely
knowhowtosayitthisisourdilemmathishasbeenourconditionsinceweknew
howtospeaksinceweknewlanguagewasatoolandwehadtolearnitsproperuse
wesenseorIsenseorIsensedIoughttosensemoreIshouldclearlysensemore
thatmightbethebestthingandIlldoitwithoutreserveIllsensemoretoday
orifIdontsensemoretodayyoucanbewhollycertainIllsensemoretomorrow
whetherIwakeasanoversensitivetimocracyoraromanticizedyounghollow
mattersnotIcouldbethosebutImageigercounteralwaysontheedgeofalarm

sayessatatthedinercounterhardlybreathingshedidntwanttoletcearley
knowshewasonthevergeoftearsshewasworriedshedsuddenlyletloosewith
asobthatwouldbeunacceptablenotthatcearleywouldmindshewouldntthat
wasntthepointsayesbodywoulddosomethingthatherheartwasntfeelingor
thathermindwasntcommandinganditwouldlooklikesomethingitwasntorit
wouldlookcontriveditmightlooklikerealsorroworfakesorrowandeither
wayshedbemortifiedwecantstomachourtruthsorourliestaylorhadbecome
uselesstoherandramickwasnowworsethanuselessdeathhadcomealongwith
spacetomakethemobsoleteexceptmaybefortaylorspublicpolitenessthat
personaofhisthatwasjustenoughtomaintainstabilityhergritswerethin
andhercoffeewasthickandherpatienceforherownemotionslaymessyinthe
middleofhergutifsheweretogomadperhapsonlycearleywouldbeofanyhelp
toherperhapsonlyanimaunderstandstheprecipiceattheendofreasonthat
lipthattremblesforabandonshechewedherfoodlikemostgoodmammalsthen
swallowedandwishedshehadanewspaperormagazinetoreadshetookanother
biteofhereggsandthenputherforkdownshewasdoneenoughalreadyitwasnt
workingthisbreakfastsheshouldvejustgrabbedsomethingpackagedtoeat
inthecarwhiledrivingshedbeoutofthistownandcountyandmaybethestate
bynowshedbeonherwayhomeorelsewherethoughsheknewshedhavetobringus
alongwithherhersolitudewasinherentlyandpermanentlycompromisedshe
couldntshakeoffherlivingcellsonlyherdeadonesshewasntgoingtomakea
sceneshewasntgoingtomakeasplashshewasntgoingtomergeherselfinthis
lifeoranyothershewasgoingtowipehermouthpayherbillleaveatipandget
onherwayatlastsomeplacewhereshecouldsitinthesunlightanddisregard
taylorsordinarypleasantnessandnotshareasolitarythoughtwithramick

sayesdrovethetwistedroadtowardheavenwithouttellingadruggedtaylor
ortherestofuswherewewereheadingshedmadeuphermindtodrivesomewhere
nonexistentwithfallaciousdirectionssotobeoncelostandneverbefound
sheroundedcornerswithprecisionandflairastheroadtookustotheclouds
andthenthroughthemintosunnyassuranceabovemullandtimberlineshewas
intentuponacceleratingstraightthroughtheatmosphereiftheroadwould
letherthoughobviouslythatactualroadwouldntletherwedhavetoimagine
adifferentsortofroadaltogetheronethatranthroughourmindstretching
towardanillusionhungfromfaithbutwhentaylorslightlyresurfacedfrom
hissyncopehewatchedhissurroundingsmeldintodoubthesawnothingonour
horizonjustaslewoflegendarycolorsfeigningdepthoffieldconsequence
hecouldntclarifywhatwasntclearhecouldnthearthroughthemosaicandhe
couldntseethroughthestatichecouldntplacehimselfathisproperapogee
choirssangintheouterdistanceoriftheywerentquitechoirstheymightve
beenthespinningsoundsofthedoomedspheresofthedoomedsunsholysystem
ortheymightvebeenourmindworkingvoraciouslytopatternaweaksolution
wefelttheairlightenandwestruggledtokeepourheadsfromemptyingtheir
dreamsintodoctrinewhymustelevationcauseeverythingtothinoutweknew
mostoftheanswerbutnotalloftheansweraswasmostlytrueofmostallofour
answerstaylorstillreeledfromhishypnotictoxicityandhisodddoxology
hecouldntorienthimselfinproximitytosayesrecklessnessspeedbrought
tominglewithhubrisbutwithoutconcernforthemorrowortheyesterplanwe
wentupwardasiftherecouldbenodownwardandifsayescouldmakethetrucka
rocketoraplaneorevenaburningchariotshedflyitintothearmsofhergods
cearleywasntabouttojumpwithoutaparachutebutthatwasnttrueoframick

sayestossedthegiftoutthewindowdesperateforittohavecomefromramick
nottaylororevenbetterfromtheLordgoodgoddessherselfandnotramickat
allagiftofauthenticrecognitionfrombeyondourhumanfoiblessomething
undeniableforachangesomethingwithoutagendasomethingunconditional
buttaylorsmemoryreachcouldntbethrownawayitcocoonedherinagauzyweb
ofswellingthicknessasifherownpassionatememorieswerecemeteryweeds
asifhispresentwereherpresentandshecouldntavoidtheobjectification
ofbeinggiventowhetherinbedoronaroadtriporinacemeterycedarsswayed
andbirdsswoopedcloudsroiledandbugsscurriedsayessynthesizedherown
vastworldintoatinyfetishthatshecouldcradleinherpalmsshedgivethis
charmtotheearthasamortalseedevenifitresultedinnothingbutathistle
whatshecouldntfathomwasherbrassworthasacharmseparatefromanyflesh
separateevenfromvoicesandideasshadowsincreasedbytheendsoflightwe
couldntprovidehersolaceexceptasevanescenceintransitionsomeslight
shiftbeyondthepaleofdeathsdelicatetransfershecouldntseducegraves
emptyoroccupiedalooforavailedshewasquickerofmindthanhermasculine
pairbutitdidhernogoodtobetheblueribbonbrainatthefairitwasntofany
aidtoherinthesanctuaryortheathenaeumithasntsparedherourcritiques
shewasthestrongestamongusandthemostvulnerabletaylorhadthebalance
cearleyhadthepurposeandramickhadthewishbutsayeshadthecrucialwill
thoughnoneofthesequalitieswerepuredispersedastheywereacrossusall
onecanwishforwillwhileanothercanbalanceonespurposebutnoonecanput
thebrokeneggbacktogetherintoitspriorformwithoutreconstitutingits
elementstoaccountforchangeorjustentirelydisregardinganypriorform
cearleyknewtherewasntanythingshecouldhumanlyeverdotoremaketaylor

7 thoughts on “Sayes”

  1. ovanawasanoddcombinationofpragmatistandeccentrichalfdionysianand
    halfapollonianacarefulhedonistandarambunctioussageonedayshedsave
    youandthenextdayshedtossyouyoudwakeupasheroneandonlybutbybedtime
    youdbejustoneofadozenonhermindshewanteditallandyetshewantedorder
    shecravedsurprisesandyetshefearedrandomnesssheseemedtoseekalevel
    slopeandtoconsiderthatareasonablequirkhowcouldshehaveknownshewas
    neverfatedtofindtheoneloveatruecompanionthatwewerentgoingtoallow
    heroneandthatasignificantportionofherappealwasherfictionalstatus
    andasthusshepossessedlimitedrightsherfreewillwasdeterminedandher
    futurewaswrittenaswhimwereconstructsandphenotypesandredundancies
    thishasallbeensaidbeforeandwillbesaidagainourmetaphysicaltraipse
    ourconventionalcrawlovanaascreationdeservedafairchancecomerainor
    comeshinesmalltownlifeorstormofamillenniumwhenshematteredtoyoung
    hollowasalternativeperspectiveaspenanceforegowemakeeachotherfrom
    whateverwefindlyingabouttheplacewhateverishandywhateverspringsto
    mindwhenthemindneedstobesprungwemanufacturemeaningfromcoldchance
    ovanawasshavingherlegswhensheheardthefirstraindropspatteringupon
    hertinroofsheneverpaidmuchattentiontoforecastsbutshelovedweather
    sheenviednoahhisfloodandthedinosaurstheirbrimstoneandtheanasazis
    theirdroughtweathertoherwasasmutableassexandjustasthrillingitwas
    recompensefromthegodsforsurvivingwhatevertediumseasonalnormality
    hadwroughtbutaswithsexshewasalwayspreparedforeverycontigencythat
    aroseherstormcellarswerethemostsecurebutshealwaysgottothemjustin
    timeherceilingwastinbutherheartwasgoldherlifewasfabricatedbuther
    arcisuniversalshewantedtostandunderthetorrentslikestandingundera
    morningshowerbutshedescendedintohercellarjustasherroofpeeledaway
    cycloneordelugeitsallbuilttomovemattersalongthesestoryobjectsfor
    conveyanceofintrigueovanatookshelterinherperfectbunkerandsheknew
    somethingneededtohappennowbutshedidntknowwhatwhowasshesupposedto
    thinkaboutordesireorcursewhowasshesupposedtoprayforandtowhomwhen
    wouldsheknowitwassafetoemergeandwhoshouldshecallonceshedidshehad
    insufficientinformationtolivethelifeofanautonomousbeinginacrisis
    shecouldntrememberenoughabouthermotherorfathertomakeanythingwork
    ontologicallyandshedidnthaveanypotionresemblinganepistemological
    curewhichshockedhersinceshehadalwaysthoughtshewouldbereadyforthe
    endoftheworldorthatitwouldntmatterbecauseshewouldntbealonewhenit
    camesoshethoughtofspringerandmaxwellandclaytonandyoungholloweven
    colmorandcolfaxandshewonderedwheretheywerewhensheneededthemwhere
    weremoraandgaritaandtrementinawherewascoronawhywassheinthisweird
    untenablesituationwherewastheLordgoodgoddessandwhyhadntshespared
    herthisdiscomfortovanasatandstaredatthewallbutthewalldidntgoaway

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  2. coronacomestoyouinyoursleepasavengingangelorasassassinparamouras
    mavenscoutforfuturecheerorashuntressofthewaywardschemeshecomesto
    youwhenyoureworthyandshecomestoyouwhenyourenotshehasnoprejudices
    andsuffersallfoolscraftierthanodysseusmorepoignantthanopheliashe
    knowsherplaceasunreallegendandasexpedientfictioncoronacomestoyou
    whileyouresleepingandshecomestoyouwhileyoureawakeshesavesyoufrom
    everywolfateverydoorbutshecantsaveyoufromyourselfshecanttakeyour
    ramdesirestothemountaintopandleavethemforagoatyouseeherstarsonly
    whentheyarrowacrossyourskyorwhenyouhammeryourmindagainstherchest
    shefoundyouinyourchildhoodandwontleaveyouwhenyoureoldnotwhenyour
    hairgoeswhiteoryournervegoesslacknotevenwhenyourheartfailstomelt
    whenexposedtolovesforgenotevenwhenyourmediocritygrowstoomediocre
    oryourisolationtooimperiouscoronaknowsnothingofabandonmentbutshe
    knowsheightsheknowsdistanceshespikesyourdaydreamswithherelements
    youwillbegonebeforeallhumansaregonebuthumanswillbegonesoonenough
    coronatoomustceaseasmustoursunandallsunsandalltimesandallceasing
    youfalloutofbedandunderyourbedyouseeyourdeadbirdswiththeireyesof
    lostlovesstaringintothedustorupatthespringsoroffintoanemptyspace
    beaksandtalonsobsoletegulletsclearandvoicesstilledfeathersfreeof
    flightbreastscollapsedwillswellnomoreandyouwontgrasptheircapture
    coronagivesyoutheseatoescapeyourownlandmassthepromiseofopenwater
    againstthepromiseofflannelsheetsbuoyancyofbodyfatversuspillowsof
    wavesyoumightstandasfeiningerswhitefigurebelowthatalbatrosscloud
    andyoumightfindadiagonalstareoutflanksafrontalstarewhenstrolling
    yourumbershorewhentakingyourambershareandflingingitfarandwideyou
    mightcometobelieveinbodyshapeasthesacredformationoffleshintodirt
    youmightcometogreasethepowerpolewithbloodfromcoronasinnersanctum
    yougoaboutyourdailybusinessthinkingtherewillbetimebuttherewontbe
    timeforimmersionortimefortranscendenceyouvetimetotakeonemoregulp
    theresalmostalwaystimeforthatperhapsaquickrollinthehayarompinthe
    kitchenajauntinthebathorperhapsasallytothemarketforaspecialtreat
    youcouldalsothrowyourheartagainstthewallanddocumentthedenouement
    onoccasioncoronalacesyournightdreamswiththefeelingthatyoureworth
    thewholeworldthatyoullsomehowescapetimewithaslygrinandawryspirit
    whetheryouhavearthritisoradoublechinoranstdyoucanstilladorelifea
    simpletonsperspectiveorayogisshrugpayattentiontoeverypossibility
    yougetoutofthehouseonadayyouwanttohideonadayyouwantnightedordone
    therehavebeentoomanydaysofthisilkbutonthisnewdayyoureoutandabout
    andyouvefoundthatyouvemetitsmatchanditsmatchisyouyouretheveryone
    thisdoomeddayneedsyouhavethelionloinsforitlionessormaneablueroar
    thatcoronacanhearfromeveryedgeonewoundedspecificitytoanotherthis
    academyofselveswecohabitourcartographyprideourscatalogicalhaunts
    walkyourtownwithconfidencetalktoyourselfinconfidenceenjoyyourday
    asabandonedroyaltyinaforeignorforgottenlandspenditwithsuchaplomb
    thatalloftheidledaysstandingaroundthebookstallswillqueueuptohave
    youplumbthemorbombthemorsuccumbtothemyoushouldcrosstherivertothe
    otherbanktodemonstraterightedfromimpossibletorightthrillfromwhat
    mightsimplybecalledstasispiningforentropythetamedwantingtorewild
    coronacouldkeepyoucompanyonyourramblingscompromisingyoursolitude
    orshecouldfollowyouacrosstheplanefrompointtopointtointerveneonly
    whennecessaryonlywhenyoucriedoutforcomfortorstimulusorresolution
    whateverthepitchofyourbravadoorruseofyourcowardiceitwontsurprise
    hershesseenyoucoyandshesseenyoucourageousandsheswithyoutillyoure
    perishedtillyourewashedinthemudandsetfreefromallyourunworldlyyou
    buildingrelationshipwrecksintherisingsuntheexistentialtailandthe
    endoftellingyoupersistyouscrapetheimaginaryriverforabsentmeaning
    youscrapeyouraspirationbowlfortheresidueofsometalltreesdesireyou
    knowyourfailureshaveallbeenfailuresofheartnotheadandtheydontmuch
    amounttoanythingyoucantdoeverythingyousetouttodobecauseyourejust
    notthepersonyouwerewhenyousetouttodothemyourejustnotyouresomeone
    elsealthoughnotsomeoneelsealtogetherjustnotquitethesameenoughnot
    thesametobedifferenttobedistinctfromwhoyouoncewerebutarentnowyou
    knowyoursuccesseshaveallbeensuccessesofmatternotmindandtheymight
    yetsetyourighttheymightyetadduptopatterntheymightyetmakeyouhappy
    eventhoughoblivionsbeenknockingeversinceyougaveityouraddressever
    sinceyouthoughtyouchosequietovernoisefocusoverfrayyouchosewisely
    thoughyoudneverknowitbyyourboundnessandyourtightnessandyourscowl
    coronawhispersinyourearandushersyouintoyourdayawayfromtheseideas
    youreasofttargetforalazycupidbutyourealsotooindependentbyhalfthe
    arrowsonlystickinyourspleenyourbeliefincultureisacyclonethatwont
    carryyoutoanemeraldlandbuttoadeadvaleoradownofindeterminatepride
    whetheryournameiscimmaronorblackwidoworbrickorwhetheryoureonyour
    waytothemalpaisortheathenaeumorthebloodtaverncoronacanstrengthen
    yourresolveshecanremindyouofwhatyouwantshecanremindyouofallyoull
    neverhaveshecanjuxtaposethesewithwhatyoucurrentlyholdinyourhands
    oryourlifelongemotionalcompostheaporyourimaginationssadpiggybank
    shecanshowyouthemobilehorizonorthedynamiccryptshecanshadowyoushe
    canlightyourwayshecancorduroyyouintosafeshecananvilyouintostruck
    shemightbeyourescapehatchoryouroxygenmaskoryourmerryballandchain
    shemightseeyoubrokeandbittershemightseeyoubentandcontentshemight
    yetseeyoutriumphantinsomefuriousglitterydreamoppositeyourlustfor
    rustanddustandashorshemightjustseeyouforwhoyouareandthatllbethat
    coronacomestoyouinyourstrideasscientificmethodashauntedcuratoras
    cravenmouthforendlesscureorasprophetessofthebettermemeshecomesto
    youwhenyourewithoutandshecomestoyouwhenyourewithinshehasnolimits
    andcommandsfromaboveaswiseassolomonaswildassalomesheunderstandsa
    situationofchronicstressandlackwhenitsshowntohercoronacomestoyou
    whileyourestridingandshecomestoyouwhileyourestillshesavesyoufrom
    everyfallingstarbutshecantsaveyoufromyourboredomshecantshakeyour
    shoulderstoshiftyourtensionfrominfinitespiralstoeverlastinghorns
    ifshesavesyoufromtrementinashewontsaveyoufromquestaifshesavesyou
    fromovanashewontsaveyoufromgaritaifshekeepscolmoratbayshellallow
    colfaxtorattleyouinacrowdbutshellneverletgladstonechaseyoudownin
    yourdreamsshellnevergrindyouintotheblackdustofthevolcanicmalpais
    youknowyouregoingtodiebutdeathisstillsomethingonlyforotherpeople
    soyougoaboutyourbusinessaswegoaboutourbusinessknowingitllsoonend
    orsoonenoughanywayitllendforallofusandallofthemandforyouandforme
    butinthemeantimeyoucouldstandsomecoronacharismaandstarkcuriosity
    aboutthisfutureworldsurroundingyouandtheempiricaltyrannyofthenow
    therearephenomenainspacethatcouldmakeuscowerormakeusyawnthereare
    beingsinourbodiesthatwouldcauseusmorethanpauseifwebutknewoftheir
    presenceandthereareevilnotionsinthecollectivemaniatohumbleusgood

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  3. maxwellstoodtheorigamisequoiaonthemantleknowingitwoulddelighther
    springercrossedhisyardtohisbarnwherehekepthisideologiesinleather
    claytonwasntflashybutheknewhowtosweepasanctuarywithhisgentlegaze
    maxwellknewgaritawasnthissisterwaschildlessandwasmorelikehimthan
    notbuthecouldntstomachherpropensityforyounghollowsrestlessantics
    springerwasadoerandanegotistandthoughheknewhewasntenoughforovana
    hethoughthemightmarryheranywayandteachhertoacceptthedivinebridle
    claytonwalkedalongthefencelinethinkingabouttheLordgoodgoddessand
    howeventhoughhedidntactuallybelieveinherheprayedtoherforguidance
    maxwelllovedhisnieceandhisnephewbutwasgratefultheywerenthishewas
    happytobewiththemforadayandalsohappytoleavethemforlongerthanaday
    helovedhissistertooletscallherreginayetknewshewasntthebestmother
    springerplayedcardslikeheplayedlovewithaforceofwillthatrosefroma
    falsebeliefindarwinismwithouthishavingeverreadoriginofthespecies
    hebluffedlikeabullyandlostlikeakingyethewasnoonesfavoritefallguy
    claytoncouldpreachupastormonlyasasteadyrainsockedinfordaysheknew
    howtosoakhiscongregationwiththewatersofeternalspringandoldsummer
    butunderstoodnothingoffallmuchlesswinterandneverofferedthemtears
    maxwellcouldnthaveforeseenhedbeaherowhenthewindbegantoriseandthe
    rainbegantofallhewasexaminingthetreadonhisworkbootsandthinkinghe
    probablyshouldgetthemresoledsoontheuppersweresolidtheycouldstill
    lasthimtherestofhislifetimeifhekeptthemwaxedifhedidntlivetoolong
    springerknewtheforecasthadbeensoftwaysoftassoonastheskiesgaveway
    andtheroofsbeganlettinggohesuspectedyounghollowsunhappinesscould
    bethecausefortheescalationandheimmediatelywentoutlookingforhimto
    freehimfromtimocracysspiralgriporcooldownhiscolmorandcolfaxfever
    claytonbeheldthedarknessfromthehillandfeltitsmalevolenceapproach
    heknewitwasntfromyounghollowspsychethistimeitcamefromtheLordgood
    goddessherselfanditwascomingforhimjustlikegladstonespossechasing
    downcimmaronhehadnocoronatosavehimbuthehadelevationabovetheflood

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  4. reginamadethestormoutofthetempestinherteacupwhethermaxwellorstem
    beachoryounghollowdeserveditshegaveittothemshegaveittoallofthose
    womenshewatchedfromafarandlovedandtheLordgoodgoddessalloweditand
    hinderedhernottheLordgoodgoddessherselfwouldntinterveneifyouhave
    astormandtheroyalnomenclatureandyouwanttodrowntheneighboringtown
    youwontbeimpededbydivinewillyoucangiveyourgiftwithcoolconfidence
    ifyouwishtosparesomeoneutterlydeartoyourmindorinnocentuntonature
    youmightnothavethatgranularcontroltruthbetoldyouwonthavethatkind
    ofprecisepoweryoucangiveastormandthusthepotentialtreasureofdeath
    butyoucantgrantthesustenanceoforiginallifeoranyimaginedexistence
    unlessyouholdthereinsofthatmysteryandyouwontholdthosereinsevenif
    yourreignoveryouronelifewereconclusiveevenifyouwereselfsovereign
    reginasstormcouldntkillthefatherofherchildrenwhilesimultaneously
    guaranteeingsafetysayfortimocracyifreginasayconceivedhiminnocent
    untonatureitsimpossiblewhenwieldingastormtocommitprecisetactical
    drowningsyoumustacceptthatyouretakingcalculatedchancesandyoumust
    bewillingtobeartheburdensofcollateraldamagetheunfathomablesphinx
    lordingoverscattershotfatesamidsomestormoftempestuousretribution
    ifyouresureyoushallreignoveryourownheartforeverandeverhallelujah
    timocracywouldhavesaidyouredamnmistakenthatsovereigntyoftheheart
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    sincetheLordgoodgoddessherselfwillgiveyouaswideaberthasyoudesire
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  5. estanciawasaloneinthepoolhallandtavernmoppingthefilthyfloorswhen
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  6. youarentchosenunlessyourechosenandyoumightnotwanttobechosenitmay
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    youtowardaworldinwhichyousaygoodmomenttomeandIsaygoodmomenttoyou

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  7. humanheartsmustbeeasilymendedsincetheyrebrokendailyfromnearbyand
    distantnewsfromproximallustandendemicdisappointmentwereourownnew
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    coordinatesarelockedintoplaceyouneedntinvestinournovelsufferings

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